Low Point

I feel that im in the low point right now.
Not knowing what to do. Don't really like my job now, but this the only thing i can do.
The work environment is great, nice boss and colleagues, generous pay, but i still dont enjoy it.
Having to sit all day in front of computer, dealing with numbers all the time *sigh*!

I feel that my marriage is plain and empty, he does his own things everyday till late.
See him in the morning, before i got to work, sometimes he's still sleeping and when i got home, he's already in his office doing other work until around 1am sometimes 2am. I really dont mind if his business produces something, but so far it's like beating thin air.

I got very lonely sometimes, and i was hoping that i could turn to my parents for consolation. But everytime i call them , either they're busy or just not at home. I really hope that they're the one who call me, they never ever call me here, except for emergency! I know it's more expensive to make a call from Indo, but hey, they earn a LOT more in a day, 5 minutes call won't hurt!

That's my life, not to mention the condition at home which is not very 'pleasant'. Some of you know what im talking about. I feel stress at work but reluctant to go home.

So what i do in my spare time? trying to get my mind out of it, i took a short course on interior design, it's only 5 weeks course, but at least i got something to do which in line with my hobby.
On Monday, reach home about 5, then the class starts at 6, finishes at 9.
Thinking of taking a part time job on saturday and sunday, it's not about the money, but more to shifting my mind from those problems.

Oh goshh...i feel so lonely, sad, dissapointed, tired, exhausted, etc.
Some friends are going back for good this year, maybe i should too..