GUARD YOUR HEART AND MIND

I am essentialy a quiet person, i dont talk much with new people. That's why when i got angry, usually i blow up.
I do have so much anger in my heart, im not a person that can forgive and forget. I can always build that relationship back, but that pain will stay in my heart.
I must admit, i am a person with so much revenge and hatred in my heart, i was raised this way.

But one thing i learn as i grow up, it may takes a while to change and fix your heart but you can always change your attitude and what comes out from your mouth.
When i was angry, i used to talk back to people and hurt them, i was very good at that. But then i realised, what's the point in that? showing them that you are stronger and better than them? No, that attitude looks shallow to me.

Especially when you are getting older, wiser and more mature, you have this urge to respond in a more intellectual way. Not with anger, shouts, harsh words. As im getting older, i tend to shut my mouth when my heart is boiling, the reason is i dont want to hurt people's feeling, i will let it calm first and talk. That way it will be a 'win-win' situation.

Im still 25 yrs old, i still have a lot to learn, but i can say im proud of myself in the way i handle my mouth and attitude :)

I've been fasting and praying for a week, i do have several problems and tribulations to overcome, and God has put some tests over the week and they were not easy. I am still waiting for what i've been praying for, but during that God showed me other things as well. After a full day of fasting, i always looking forward for the dinner, and i feel so grateful for the food, it becomes something so precious and valuable. It made me realise how God has blessed me so much, much more than a good food, i never lack of anything and yet still complaining.


PS: "Thank you Tas for knowing me better than others, luv ya"