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Here is a little experiment done by my husband at Photo4Life and i.
It's amazing what you can do with technology these days :D

6 MONTHS

Yeay, Olie is 6 months old! time does flies.
It seems only yesterday i held him the first time.
Olie is almost crawling and one tooth is sticking out :), his temperature was a bit high for 2 days but he wasn't cranky at all, but he drools all over the place, i guess im lucky :)
He is having cough and runny nose right now, but even then, he is still good and easy.
Anyway, here is his monthly photo:

Missing you still..

Today is Feb 13th. Yes, it is the 2nd anniversary of Emmanuel's passing.
It has been 2 years, but it never got easier.

Everything went normal today, but i've been feeling sad all day.

It's still very clear in my head of what happened 2 years ago. I was in labour and fighting for 24 hours.
I broke down in tears when my eyes caught Em's memories box while changing Ollie.
It's a simple blue box with my entire life in it. All i have left of Em are in that box.

I was so tempted to grab it and opened it to see his tiny clothes, his mini teddy bear, his hat, his photos, but it was probably not a good idea. As i am writing this, i am contemplating maybe i should sit in my room with Em's box. I feel like a bad mom if i don't do it but it is so hard for me :'(

"Baby Em, i miss you every single day... having you in my arms even for a short time is something that i really treasure in my life. I really hope you know how much i want to kiss and hug you. I know Jesus is holding you in heaven, so you are in the best place possible. Mommy can't wait to see you again, and when that time comes, i will give you the biggest kiss and hug..i love you"

5 MONTHS

Oliver is 5 months old on 20 Jan! Time flies hey, it seems only yesterday he was born, now he can roll over and eats solid :)

I've been tremendously blessed with Oliver, he is a very good boy *sounds bias i know*
My mom said that im lucky that Oli has Indra's personality, very easy going and kind. Unlike me, i was very difficult when i was a baby, mom said that she had to carry and rock me for hours, she couldnt even sit for a while.

When Oliver was 3.5 months, he started to sleep longer during the night. He slept for 5-6 hours straight and only woke up once or twice.
We tried our best not to carry or rock him to sleep, unless he was cranky. We always put him on his cot, wrapped, 2 bolsters on his side and a dummy, and he would fall asleep by himself.
The last few days, he's been sleeping for 9 hours straight! He woke up in the morning around 6 for a feed and fell back to sleep until 9am *heaven*
Few people told us that we are lucky to have him :)

Anyway, let's stop boasting about Olie, i'm sure every parents feel the same way about their babies :). Here is Olie at 5 months:

BABY CHLOE

My good friend delivered her baby girl on boxing day, she is a miracle baby! my friend and i have gone through similar situation in our lives and im truly happy for her that she finally got to hold baby Chloe in her arms :)

Before Chloe was born, i always wanted to make a baby quilt for her, just like the one i made for Olie. But after Olie was born, i didnt have time to do my routines let alone making blanket. But Chloe is so special, i forced myself to start the quilt. It took 2-3 weeks for the fabric to arrived and i booked one day to finish the quilt. I begged Indra to look after Oli that day :)
I always had yellow and purple in my mind, but i couldnt find the purple so i ended up making yellow-pink combination quilt.

Here you go:

OLIVER'S MONTHLY PHOTOS

Motherhood is surely not easy, but it's been so rewarding when your baby smiles at you.
Last time i posted an entry was almost 5 months ago and after that, my life is full with Oliver :)
Anyway, i promised myself last time to take Oliver's monthly photo, so far i did it well, i just dont have the time to upload them.
So here they are, month 2 to 4:







And yes, he looks more like me every day :)

1 MONTH OLD

In our family, we have a tradition of shaving baby's hair when they are 30 days old. Back in Indonesia, the family usually sends out red dyed eggs to relatives and friends, but over here in Australia, i cant afford sending out 30 eggs to each person! so, i ordered cupcakes instead :)

Ollie has been good so far, he drinks a lot and i think he gained quite a lot too. He also managed to sleep longer at night, not every night yet, but hopefully it will very soon :P. My mom is here until the end of October so i got a lot of help in term of washing, cooking, cleaning even carrying Ollie. It's normal for my mom to be so excited over Ollie as he is her first grandchild, she would carry Ollie all the time, pick him up over small things, and now i have to rock him to sleep. Im trying to tell her not to rock him too much, but i guess she just loves him too much :D

Anyway, here is Ollie's 1 month photo, i will try my best to take his monthly photo.